Tuesday, March 24, 2015

spring love adventure

hyacinth love

I ran across this quotation twice today and I thought to myself, "I need to remember this!" I wondered where to put it and then I remembered I had a blog! Hope anyone stopping by enjoys it as well. It resonates so deeply for me right now. Just love, love, love...

Your life will have a kind of perfection, although you will not be saints. The perfection will consist in this: you will be very weak and you will make many mistakes; you will be awkward, for you will be poor in spirit and hunger and thirst for justice. You will not be perfect, but you will love. This is the gate and the way. Whatever you desire for yourself, wish the same for others. If you expect something from people, give the same to them. There is nothing greater than love. There is nothing more holy than love. There is nothing more true than love, nothing more real. So let us hand our lives over to love and seal the bond of love.

-Eberhard Arnold


Saturday, January 31, 2015

contentment adventure

morning snow

This was the view out our back windows last weekend. So fun to wake to a magical fairyland and still have the roads be clear so I can get to the farmers' market. It's quiet over here these days. Well, on the weekends. During the week is a whole other story, but these days I really do love it all. I love the non-stop activity of my work and the way it pulls from all my different strengths and interests and sometimes pushes me right to my edge. And I love the weekends and the deep rest I plunge into with naps, reading, movies, and more naps. I read this passage yesterday in Meghan Daum's beautiful book, The Unspeakable: And Other Subjects of Discussion, and it rang so true to how I feel about my life these days. I feel so blessed.

"My goal in life is to be content. By that I don't mean 'fine' or 'basically satisfied.' I don't mean settling. I mean, for back of better terms, feeling like I'm in the right life. Contentment, for me, would mean living in a place where I felt like part of a community, doing work that feels reasonably meaningful, surrounding myself with people I enjoy, respect, and in some cases love."

Yep, all that.

And here are a couple of other things I'm loving these days:

Jim Jarmusch's gorgeous Only Lovers Left Alive. Crazy title, crazy cover, crazy Vampire Movie premise, but, man, this is my new favorite thing. I can't recommend it enough!

Also loving Tosha Silver's awesome class supporting her Outrageous Openness: Letting the Divine Take the Lead book on Simon Says. Really brings the material to life. Such a different way to live - it feels completely liberating!

I hope you're all doing well! Every day is getting longer up here in the Northern Hemisphere. That feels good, too...

Thursday, January 1, 2015

peace adventure

red leaf

Wow! I just went back and read my post from January 1, 2014. That was a hard time and I'm sort of impressed by my moxy that I chose the word ENJOYING. Huh. Quite a word to choose when you're shaken by so much death around you, some I mentioned in my post and some way too hard and scary and huge to bring up there. And with Saturn in Scorpio, on an astrological level it was also not looking like it was going to be the easiest year. But ever the optimist, I chose ENJOYING. I can't say that word sums up the year completely, but there are certainly things I enjoyed. I loved getting time with family, even under really hard circumstances. I look forward to more visits in 2015, hopefully under more carefree conditions. I definitely have enjoyed seeing Rodg feeling better and making amazing music. I've really enjoyed being super lazy after quitting school and rediscovering the pleasures of reading fiction and napping, often as a combined activity for vast swaths of time. I've enjoyed slowing down and developing a healthy respect for rest. I've enjoyed some developments at work that allow me to follow my heart's calling in a more direct way. OK, maybe it wasn't such a bad word, but I am not choosing it again for 2015. This year I'm choosing PEACE.

This word has followed me around for years. Decades ago I was obsessed with an amazing woman named Peace Pilgrim. Almost a decade ago I received Peace Dancer as my Buddhist name. And as a surprising development, I've discovered recently that I can slow my whole nervous system down if I say "peace" to myself while I breathe out. This is like magic to me, since I've been tormented by a speedy nervous system for several years, if not my whole life. It feels like shorthand for "Peace be with you." I'm not trying to change anything. Not trying to take my inner crazy and make it peace. What I really feel I'm doing is seeing it all and surrendering to it in a deep way, bowing to it and saying, as we did in my favorite part of church services, "Peace be with you." I may not understand it. I may not like it. But I'm done wasting my energy trying to figure it out or make it different. I'm done with the fight.

So, too, may peace be with you all in 2015. May peace be in your own deep hearts and as a result in the crazy, mixed up, beautiful, broken world we're all lucky enough to be in. Peace.

Saturday, December 13, 2014

expression adventure

rodg and stan

By far the most fun event of the week was attending Free Form Friday in a new performance space in Centennial Park, hosted by Metro Parks Nashville and Arts in the Park. I love seeing Metro do creative, cool stuff showcasing the amazing expression of Nashvillians, in this case the Voight-Kampff Duo and work by our good friend, Stan Link! Having just opened two shows of local artwork at the library, I was delighted to shift to the creative world of music (plus there was a great visual component provided by Dig Deep Light Show). Rodg and Stan played one of Stan's pieces based on a bagatelle by Beethoven that they performed together last year and it was fun to hear it in another venue. Such a treat to be nourished by so much creativity!

Saturday, November 29, 2014

full adventure

look up

What to say? So much has happened since we last spoke. So. Much. Some of it was hard. Some of it was simple. Underneath all of it was love. And now I feel like I've hit a patch of smooth river after crashing down the rapids. Here are some things I've seen and enjoyed in these past few weeks of this glorious life. And have I mentioned how grateful I am for you? Because I am.

golden leaves

fall rabbit woman

look down

fall crocus

Sunday, October 26, 2014

overwhelm adventure

fall flowers

I know, not a new theme. And this time I can't even blame it on school because I dropped out last month, thank goodness! If I'm feeling overwhelmed between work and life then I can't even imagine school being in the mix.

Here are some things that have been helping:

These words of wisdom from Wayne Muller - love that man! He is so the voice of reason, now how to integrate it...

Broken Open by Elizabeth Lesser

What's In the Way Is the Way by Mary O'Malley

A Field Guide to Happiness by Linda Leaming

If it feels like I've disappeared, I apologize. I'm having to concentrate on keeping the home fires burning these days, but this can't last forever, can it?

Saturday, September 27, 2014

fall adventure

fall flowers

Boy, you sure would think I've been at Squam from this picture. As you can see from my posts from 2012 and 2010, this is my usual motif. While I've actually really craved being at Squam Lake on these gorgeous fall days, I took this photo at one of the farmers' markets I visited this morning. And it's a helpful reminder that I don't need to go far to get insights and messages. These days they're coming for me, with so many reminders to take it slow, to find the ease, to let go into what is, and to enjoy all of it.